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I passed by my old blog , and (below)this was an old entry posted in 2007 , when i was 16 .
At that time , life was hard without money but was made easy with lovely friends surrounding me with love and memories . That was when i'm not into relationships at all , even though i had a bf for a short period of time . Love was nothing and never really existed . I dont give a fuck to then-bf .
My friends were everything i need . I love . I care about .
Right now , can't but have to admit Xq has played an important role in my life . As time goes by i saw his sincerity and patience , treating me like a baby . Till now .
And then i realise , its hard to balance up myself with boyfriend and girlfriends .
I've no time to spare for everybody . Even myself , working takes up the most time and i dont get enough rest . To chill , sing , play .
So i decide that i'm not perfect enough to please everyone .
Only the closests deserves my time . Of course , including my sisters(you can call me childish to say "sisters" but i dont care , thats how i addressed them since 2005 and always) .

We're human . Only human .
We need to concentrate on whats important to us instead of focusing on the negative setbacks .
Thats how it works , in life , in work , in this cruel society .

You cannot decide what comes to you , but you can choose what you want to do about it .


This is the extremely long entry posted on 14 August 2007 , here it goes :

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Maybe i should learn to enjoy every part of my life , even if it means the bad ones . Because it doesnt repeat again . Many times in life i feel like giving up , feel like abandoning myself . Thinking that i can just die away like that .
But friends around me hold me on , telling me they would be there . Maybe a few words cant do much ; but i know that their concern is enough already .
We shouldnt be dependant on our friends too , they too have their own problems .
Grateful enough that they're there for us . But some people think that their friends adds more problem for them , so in the first place why are they all friends ?
If you regard them as friends , you shouldnt be shifting the wrongs and blames to them , unless its really their fault .
Sometimes environment , people , time , mood JUST doesnt allow us to be RIGHT all the time . And i believe no human can do that ..
Wats the definition of "right" and "wrong" , there shouldnt be R and W in the world . cause R and W is just our own views and opinions for that specific event . Lets say breaking rules is W , but even rules are set by man . And they say " man are all equal - but why cant we change it ?" The existance of R and W caused so much sufferings to us from the past till now and still going on in reality .
Mistakes - everyone does that . But who can really admit and face up to themselves . Most of us blame our mistakes onto others without knowing it . And thats when troubles start appearing . But , even if we have the courage to admit and face it , how many can really FORGIVE themselves ? few .
Forgiving needs much more courage than anything . And even when you can forgive , who will be there to give a 2nd chance . Many agrees on the outside , but when it come to realistic and by action , how many are willingly ?
As friends , we shouldnt be pushing the blames or adding the oil to the person , but helping them to change by reminding them .. Sadly sometimes , you can just find nobody to understand . Some will even ask you to fuck off and dont kpo . Lol , or maybe say you're faking your help - jia xing xing .
Thinking back , who's so free to fake themselves helping you ? That person must be crazy or whatsoever la . We're not asking to them to appreciate , but just understanding will make things fine ..To people who feel down or feel that nobody is there for them , or people are prejudice against them (or prejudice against their own friends) , think about it .
Did you let your friends help you ? Did you share or tell them your problems .
BUT , seriously sometimes when you trust the wrong person , things go worse and thats when you blame them . By that point , back to square 1 , that sucky feeling is back again .
At the 2nd time , you really find no hope again .
So you take up everything yourself . And after sometime you realise being by yourself isnt that bad afterall , cause you're already independant by that time .
Till now , i still dont know whats "friends" .
Defination -A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts .
Or should they be called people with masks , having the ability to plot against when you arent realising .
Lol , sounded very bad but its true when you can see this from your heart . Main point is , we should always choose our friends carefully , to prevent yourself from giving others the chance to betray you .
God gave us the ability to love , care , share , concern , but how come majority of us are always arguing , being selfish with one another , getting worked up at each other for no reason(sikit sikit ta bulehLOL) , despising others and the weak ones , laughing at those who look ugly on the outside .
We care for each other from the heart , not from the mouth . Many things we hope people understand , or perhaps THOUGHT they know . But never thought that they will never know until we tell them . (all of above statement is based on own's opinions) "



Sounds abit weird though . But then it was written based on a 16 yrs old mindset . Dont pin high hopes ! And don't think too much . It was a then-thinking thing .
Probably not now . (:

Lastly , i wanna say i love my girls and my boy ! For everything and memories they've given me , be it happy or sad . I'll love you all more each day ^_^